Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Big Girls Don't Cry

OMGOSH!! I am just an emotional wreck lately!! First off I'm 9 months pregnant which can be very uncomfortable at times, I'm not sleeping very well and of course the hormones...oh the hormones!!! So being very pregnant is enough but on top of all that we're moving. As most of you know, we've been living with my parents while we wait for our house in CO to sell but it still hasn't sold and we're already crowded here and just really don't have any room for the baby! Kyle's grandma has been living in assisted living for a while and they're not ready to sell her house yet so we're going to move into it until our house sells! I really love the house and I'm excited to have some more space for all our stuff but this was a HUGE chore as his grandparents had saved EVERYTHING!!!! So for the last month we've been going through the whole house and attic and separating what to save, what to sell, and what to donate. We then had an estate sale and Kyle left last Tuesday and packed up our CO house and arrived back here Sunday. I had spent the whole week cleaning the house and getting things organized. Now we still have to have a furniture sale and finish emptying out the house, then move our stuff from the garage to inside and organize, organize, organize! I am in major nesting mode so I want everything clean and perfect which brings on A LOT of tears during this chaos of moving things in and out at the same time! My mother in law asked me yesterday as we were moving some things in if I wanted her to vacuum Keaton's room, I just started crying and said through tears, "I don't know!!". Haha, I was slightly overwhelmed and didn't know what to do with anything! I do find myself quite amusing once I feel better though. Then whatever made me cry so hard seems funny, or almost funny! Ha! I'm feeling a lot better now though because I got my tears out (I know there's way more to come!) and I know our families are really helping us out and everything will turn out OK!!! Just breath!!!

On top of all that Keaton is really acting up for me lately. He is normally so easy going and just an all around easy kid! He'll go from perfect, to tantrum, then back to perfect in no time, I just don't get where it's coming from and I could handle it so much better if I weren't so stressed!! Yesterday was the worst when he had his first public breakdown in Toys R Us. It was horrible and by the way he was acting I think people in the parking lot probably thought I was abusing him!! I of course was in tears too by the end of it. Afterwards he turns back into an angel and gives me a hug and says he's sorry and just melts my heart. Ahhh, only your child can make you absolutely crazy one second and then melt your heart the next! =)

Pray for my sanity yall!! I will be so happy when this moving is over!!!!


Kimmie said...

You poor thing. Lil K is probably just reacting off your stress and hopefully that phase will fade soon. Just hang in there. Its so wonderful that you have family that is helping you through all of this. Just keep praying for sanity and guidance and it will happen.
We love you chica and if there is anything we can all help with, just let us know. Kisses!

LV said...

OH how I feel for you! We just moved and I'm not 9 months pregnant, you poor thing! And I know what you mean about the public meltdowns, Troy does the same thing. And don't worry about the other people, I have had to learn that too. I always feel like everyone is watching us and him, but I just flash a huge smile and go on my way. Well I'm hoping everything gets better for you.

Rachel Buckley said...

you poor little thing...big girls can cry and should cry. good luck with the rest of the move! And, of course, the whole 'giving birth' thing!

Cara said...

Praying for you, Kristin! I know how stressful moving can be, but I can only imagine how stressful it is at 9 months pregnant! Know that I'm thinking of you and that I can WAIT to see pics of the new baby SOON! :) Love you!

Roni said...

So been there...don't feel alone. In a few weeks, you'll be able to wash it all away with a margarita!!!!